Monday, February 28, 2011

Melts My Heart

With our first anniversary soon approaching, Blake and I have been reminiscing about the days and weeks just before we met and began dating. This time last year, I was just recovering (quite miraculously, I must add) from a 100.5 degree fever and a short bout with my favorite winter-time illness, bronchitis. My car literally died less than half a mile from my house in the midst of said fever/bronchitis. And, I was single.

For a while, I had been praying a particularly risky prayer. Dating was getting on my nerves because I had big plans ahead. My plan was to hightail it to North Carolina after graduation and start the new chapter of my life there. I was not disinterested in dating, but I was also not focused on it. My prayer was that God would make it "abundantly clear" when I had found "the one." Now, this doesn't seem like a risky prayer, but it was. People laughed when I told them this is what I was praying for. It was kind-of like praying for a big flashing neon sign, but the Lord told me to pray it, and I was convinced that He would deliver. Several friends told me I wasn't giving guys enough of a chance to see if they were "the one," but I knew God had something powerful in store.

I had also thought God had been trying to make things "abundantly clear" with a certain guy, but I still had my doubts. I was very confused. And, on March 11, 2010, I wrote in my journal:

"I hope and pray that I find someone 10,000x better than [that guy]."

And, on March 12, 2010, I met someone 10,000x better than - not just [that guy] - but better than any guy I had ever met. His name was Blake. :)

I'll save some of the sappy details of what happened between March 12 and March 30. But, on March 30, after a conversation about marriage, I wrote:

"Blake said it best tonight, 'Is this what it feels like to meet your wife? ... I think it is.'

I have been wondering the same thing. Is this what it feels like to meet your husband?

I think so."

The Lord delivered on His promise in what I believe is a mighty, mighty way. It makes my heart so happy to know that God planned every beautiful and intricate detail of our relationship long before we ever met. My prayers continue as we approach marriage, and it is my earnest prayer that God is glorified greatly in our story, in our life, and in our marriage.